May approaches.

A reminder that you've been gone. You've been gone for a year, and I've been empty ever since.

I am reminded of our time together, the beautiful year we spent together. The moments we shared in each other's arms. Your soothing, angelic voice. Your whispers which calmed my ever-anxious mind. Your soft hands, intertwined in mine.

I am reminded, that all of this, I will never experience again.

It hurts. A strange pain.

My memories of you blur with each passing day, but the pain stays. An emptiness which keeps growing. I try to find your words in the music we listened to. I pretend they are your words.

I hate my mind, how it puts the memory of you farther, and deeper in the back, as if it is shelfing everything I experienced with you. I fight it, but whatever's in my head, controlling my mind, doesn't heed my words.

Still, no matter what my mind does, I know I will never forget you, my dear Shubhangi. My angel.

I miss the day we went to that Karaoke together. Singing with you, my arms wrapped around you, that is a memory I will treasure always.

Baka Mitai, that's what we sung together.

You always took efforts to embrace my interests. I remember the nights we spent playing PUBG. I absolutely sucked at the game, but you were so good. It was funny. It was wholesome, I was in love.

Our first date, it was at Harajuku. We both loved sushi, and that's where you took me. You fed me by your hands, I was in love.

You put your head on my shoulder, while you held my hand tightly, I was in love.

The way you kissed my cheeks when nobody was looking, I was in love.

Your eyes, your gaze was soft, and I was in love.

You're gone, and I am still in love.

You were selfless. Your drive, your motivation, your sincerity, I wish I can replicate a fraction of the person you were.

Shubhangi, you were perfect.

You deserved to live a long, happy life. You deserved to experience all joys of this world. You deserved to grow old.

I don't grieve the loss of our love, I grieve you. I grieve for the experiences which were unfairly taken away from you.

There were so many moments we shared. The moments only you and I know about. Now you're gone, and I am left with those memories.

You always clicked photographs. I often asked why, and you said, "For memories". Did you know you were going to go away?

I cried in your arms once, I don't know why, but I cried, and told you to never leave me.

You cried in my arms, telling me you don't want to leave me.

Did you know something Shubhangi? Something you were too afraid to share?

Shubhangi, I hope we meet again. I hope I can be a better person next time, and I can keep you happy, forever.

My dearest, may you rest in peace.

My dearest, may we meet again in a different life.

I will keep your memory alive, until the day I die.

You were my soulmate, my true love, my other half.

I was in love, and I will be in love for the years to come. Take care my dear. I miss you.